March 1, 2014

A Glimmer of Hope

This week something massive happened.

After years of suffering with asthma, allergic rhinitis and chronic congestion I finally found some answers.

I saw an Ear, Nose & Throat Specialist (ENT) who confirmed that I have massive nasal polyps. 

A nasal polyp is an outgrowth, resembling a peeled seedless grape, protruding from the mucous membranes that line the nasal passages and sinuses. Invisible to others, nasal polyps make breathing through the nose a challenge, and can really affect your quality of life. Symptoms include pain, blockage and mucous discharge. 

He prescribed a steroid anti-inflammatory drug called Prednisone which I have to take for 7 days and an antibiotic.  He’s hoping the drugs will reduce the polyps enough so that they don’t cause me any more suffering but he’s not confident that I’ll be able to get away without surgery.  However, even if I do get surgery, the likelihood of the polyps growing back is very high.

As a person who’s only very recently come around to accepting that perhaps Western medicine can work alongside Eastern and holistic medicine; for the first time in my life, I can honestly understand how people can become addicted to prescription medicine.

I haven’t even been taking Prednisone for a full week yet, and I’m feeling like a brand new person.

I can’t honestly remember ever feeling this good before.  I am clear-minded, focussed, driven and courageous.  I am performing and taking risks at work like I’ve only ever dreamed about previously.  I am having powerful conversations and articulating my thoughts in ways I never thought possible.

But I know that it is a double edged sword.

So far, the side-affects are minimal compared to the benefits: nausea in the mornings and insomnia at night.

However, I know that this cannot go on long term.  My body won’t cope with inadequate sleep for long and I don’t believe my digestive system would be likely to hold up to prolonged use of this powerful drug.

I may go backwards when I come off the Prednisone, but it has given me some hope.  It’s shown me a glimpse of what my life can be like when I am fully healed.

I’m confident that I will find my answer to long-term healing and I believe that it lies in my diet.

My ENT appears to agree that it could be diet related and he suggested that I may have a Salicylate intolerance. 

Salicylates are chemicals that occur naturally in many plants – they're a kind of natural pesticide – to protect the plants against insects and diseases.  Salicylates are found in most fruit, some vegetables, herbs, spices, tea and flavour additives. For example, citrus fruit, berries, tomato sauce and mint flavouring are naturally high in salicylates and so are processed foods with those flavours.  For more information about salicylates, look here.

Over the last 18 months I have made so many changes to my diet: gluten free, dairy free and low carb; and each change has seen marked improvements in my condition.

I’m now looking into seeing a nutritionist and I believe that I may have to go on an elimination diet in order to pinpoint my intolerances.  An elimination diet is used to identify foods which a person is intolerant of, in which all suspected foods are excluded from the diet and then reintroduced one at a time.  Sure it will be a pain in the ass, but I’m willing to do what it takes.


This drug has shown me how good I can feel, and my wish is to feel this good all the time (well most of the time at least) so I cannot stop searching.  I must do what it takes and I must go on.

Quote of the Day

“Let food be thy medicine and medicine be thy food”  



February 22, 2014

Thank you for being unkind

I am a Highly Sensitive Person.  

I used to think this meant that people should be kinder and cater to my sensitivities.  My mother always says that she can only be who she is, whenever I chide her for being too insensitive.  I always thought this was a cop-out.  

After all, we always have a choice in how we behave.

I'm starting to think however that maybe it's better that people don't cater to my sensitivities because how else would I grow?  How else would I become stronger and more resilient?  How else would I learn about my sensitivities and learn to nurture, love and accept that part of me?

If nobody shines light on my sensitivities then they will remain in the darkness where they can never be healed.

Quote of the Day

“We emerge into the light not by denying our pain, but by walking through it.” 
― Joan Borysenko